God of Death

These few days, I have not been feeling very well. I have no idea what is going to happen to me. It started on 21/4/08. Initially, I was very fine when I was out with my friend. Then the following day, I felt so tired in the class. It's always been the same routine but it's just that in that morning, I can't seem to be concentrate very well.

On Tuesday night after gathering with my ex-secondary friends, I went home and drank a can of Carlsberg. The next day which is Wednesday, I was on my way to school. Just as usual, I walk on the same pace but my cnemis (the part of the leg that located in between knee and ankle) hurts a lot. I almost felt like this sensation going to tear it apart. On that night, I seek my friend advice when I was working. He told me that my liver is the one causing the problem. He told me that it might be cancer so I need to seek doctor's help. He also told me that seeking Chinese Sensei is good enough since they will massage it for me.

On Thursday, the same pain came back. But I just ignored it. Friday evening, I asked my house owner's opinion. He told me story regarding his brother's who got leg cancer and died after a few days when the cancer is being discovered. On Sat morning, I woke up to find my whole body in misery. Fever and cramps almost everywhere. I almost can't stand up. After a few time sleep-wake. I finally pulled myself up and get to work. I take 2 panadol strong before I went to work. It was alright for a few hours before the pain came back again. I felt giddy and slowly losing my conscious. Luckily I got the chance to rest in the MRT when I was on my way home. As a matter of fact my cnemis pain is still occurring as I type every single word for this post. I hope the pain will just gone when I take panadol and rest tonight.

I have no idea why is this happening to me. Seems like the God of Death like me so much that He has been trying to put off the light in my live. I won't be surprised if there is a day where I can't see light anymore. I think my time is approaching. The ticking of my time in this world is getting slower. So if I really go one day, then I will at least will like to "Thank the World for whatever things that she has provided me".